MY F****CKED UP LOVE LIFE

OK WHERE DO I START. I WANTED TO POST THIS BECAUSE I

WANTED TO VENT A LITTLE THIS MORNING. I HAVE TWO KIDS BOTH OF THEM ARE BOYS

AND I LOVE THEM VERY MUCH.BOTH OF THEM I HAD WITH THE SAME FATHER BUT

WE HAVEN'T BEEN TOGETHER IN 2 YEARS. RECENTLY I HAVE FELT LONELY ADN THOUGHT

I WOULD LET SOMEONE IN MY LIFE AND THERE IS THIS GUY I MET AT A KOMPA PARTY

ABOUT 3 MONTHS AGO. WE HAVE BEEN TALKING OVER AND OVER AND EVERY DAY HE WOULD

ASK ABOUT MY KIDS AND HE WOULD ASK TO HELP WITH THEM FINANCIALLY BUT I WOULD OF

COURSE DECLINE THE OFFER. WE WENT ON 3 DATES AND EVERYTHING SEEMED FINE.

LONG STORY SHORT I REALLY STARTED TO LIKE THIS GUY BECAUSE I BELIEVED IN HIM AND I BELIEVED

HE CAME FOR A GOOD CAUSE AND HE CARED. WHICH I DON THINK I AM WRONG. ONE DAY ABOUT 3 WEEKS AGO I LEFT MY

SONS WITH MY MOTHER AND ME AND HIM WENT OUT AND WE WENT FOR DINNER THEN WE WE WENT TO

HIS HOUSE AND OF COURSE IM HUMAN I WAS NOT ABLE TO CONTROL MYSELF AND THINGS ENDED UP

HAPPENING.

EVERY THING WAS FINE AFTER THE FIRST WEEK IT HAPPENED BUT THE LAST TWO DAYS I FOUND OUT SOMETHING

THAT DESTROYED ME.I WASNT READY FOR IT AS WOMAN, AS A MOTHER AND I DONT THINK ANYBODY ELSE WOULD. HE

DELIBERATELY ADMITTED THAT ALL HE WANTED WAS THE SEXUAL PLEASURE. AFTER THE DISBELIEF AND AFTER THE BACK AND

FOURTH HE SAID HE AND HIS FRIENDS ARE FOLLOWING ME ON IG AND IT WAS A BET THAT HE CAN DO ME. NOW MIND YOU

THAT I STARTED TO HAVE MAD FEELINGS FOR THIS GUY THINKING HE COULD POSSIBLY BE A FATHER FIGURE FOR MY SONS. YOU CAN IMAGINE

IM HURT REALLY BAD BUT I HAVE NO CHOICE TO BE STRONG TO TAKE CARE OF MY TWO SONS AND I SWEAR ON MY LIFE TO RAISE

MY SONS BETTER THAN THIS.